Change Doesn't Happen (not in your world anyway)

Change.  It's not something that happens in a blink of an eye, doesn't travel at the speed of light, and nothing you can say will make it differ.  you say that your a changing man, plans are easier explained than done.  that's all it is, a plan.  its like when your in high school and you start a band with your friends but the farthest it ever gets is open mic night at a smoothie shack.  why did i change you might ask.  i didn't change, just sick and tired of you promising me to do all these amazing things and we'll ride in a carriage as the sun sets over the horizon.  i have a boyfriend, so why even try? even if i was unattached, your fantasy wouldn't become a reality.  its time for me to start living and as long as your around i might as well be a cadaver.  no offense, i mean i just love how you call me stupid, worthless, and a few other words that i don't need to mention.  you had your chance once before then you went and messed it up because i wasn't up to your standards as far as age goes.  one year, one grade, a thousand hearts broken by the infamous m.w.  Did i ever thank you for totally messing up my heart, brain, and life?  remind me next time, oh wait, there isn't going to be a next time.  I'm brushing off my knees and getting up off the ground that you kindly pushed me onto.  I don't think it takes that much effort to just leave me alone and stop calling me, but I'm lying.  I kind of like it when you text me and say "hey".  I need to teach myself to vomit at the thought of receiving a text message from thee.  you told me to move on and i did then you get mad when i don't exactly want you when you change your poor excuse for a mind.  Don't treat me the same as those girls, don't treat me any different either.  When you see me you act as if I'm just some girl waiting for my pizza in the lunch line, well your wrong.  I don't like pizza.



remember, change doesn't happen.  (not in your world anyway)

A Brighter Manana

my name is Maria
I am a pessimist,
or so they tell me
why?
might you ask
well that's a good question
i wonder when i will find
out the truth behind all the lies
of the past, present, and future

The past.
looking through my past
isn't so easy you see
Ive been scarred by life
and life itself has been scarred by me
I try so hard every waking moment
of each individual day
to not let all the evils from these past days
to diminish my soul
i am a failure

The present.
"don't think about things so much,
enjoy the little things in life"
is what the wise one once told me
much easier said than done
we have so many "great" things in life
war. evil. the devil.
the devil is just a state of mind
if you worry about him,
he will be in your presence for days

The future.
hopefully its brighter than i expect
i will stay up a thousand nights if it means
manana is bright like a ray of sunshine
manana isn't looking up
for this chicka

i pray to God that life is more than it seems
after all,
don't judge a book by its cover
all we can do is hope for
A Brighter Manana

New Blog

I have a new blog!!! It's called The Great Ink Challenge where i write something that im doubting on my hand, take a picture, post it every day until I am fully satisfied and have no doubts.

NOOOOOO! (computers stink!)

Oh my gosh.  okay so my computer decided to lose wifi or whatever so my dad had to reset it and it deleted ALL of my documents!!!!  I had like 23 originals that weren't copied anywhere else!!!!!!!!!!!!  this is exactly why Steve jobs and bill gates should get together and make sure this doesn't happen anymore!!!!! ugh....i kill interwebz!


PS computers stink:(


Peace and Bullets;
                  Caitlin

Love Is Like A Bullet Proof Vest

Love. Every one has experienced it and now we all think the same thing. Love is like a bullet proof vest. You feel safe and secure when it’s there, and no matter how many layers of clothes you have on, it will always be there. Many boys have bulleted my vest but now my bullet proof vest is scarred and shabby. My Romeo came to my rescue and stitched all of the bullet marks. If your Romeo ever undoes those stitches; us girls just can’t take it anymore as our vests fall to the ground and vanish. At least that’s what we originally think. When in reality, it just becomes translucent and our vests become thicker so we don’t let anyone hurt us but we also don’t let anyone love us either. Guys say that girls are the most complex species to ever roam this earth, but really boys are the most confused species to roam this earth. Let me break it down for you; we like being called beautiful, when we say we are hurt most likely were not we just want you to care for us, if we call you sweetie we would love you to call us sweetie, and we hate the smell of axe. Don’t apply this to every girl like you boys tend to do, this is just from personal experiences. Lots of people say that teenagers are too young to know how to spell love, however you are wrong. L-O-V-E. I am thirteen years of age and yet I spelled it perfectly without stuttering. You mind and body progress as you age, your heart never changes a bit. So think next time before you tell someone madly in love that theyre wrong, it doesn’t help them it just makes them want to prove you wrong, and eventually they do. Its called marriage. So guys to sum it up for you; love is like a bullet proof vest, just so many bullets until your vest bursts open and you come undone.

Niagara Falls

The falls come crashing down
On all the curious faces
You see not one frown
Mist spraying on my family
Ma is shielding her perfectly pampered hair
Michael and I take off our hoods
Letting water drench our faces; pale as white paste

Pa takes out his personal camera
Handing its delicacy over to a stranger
Risking danger
SNAP!
The man takes our picture
As he flashes us a genuine smile
We all laugh
And frown in our souls
At the thought of the ride being done
Holding in our hearts forever
Our trip to...
Niagara Falls

Teen Ink Published Me

Yay!!!  My short story One Letter, One City, A Thousand Miles was posted on an online literary journal website!  This makes me realize that I am just that closer to getting published!